Looking for Love in All The Wrong Places

I'm really wanting to find the love of my life and get married. I've really started feeling that way in the past year. I am constantly being reminded that I am still single. Family members are always asking me if I have a boyfriend and when I'm going to get married and stuff like that. It seems like there is always someone saying that they want to hook me up with someone but then they never do. Sometimes it's because I told them "no that's ok" because I don't trust their judgment on who I should date.

In 2005 I made some bad choices when it came to guys. In April, I started talking with my upstairs neighbor and we were hanging out all the time and making out, the problem with that was things were moving really fast and I didn't get to know him first and ended up getting hurt (some of you know that story, I'm not going to get into it on here). In August, I went on a date with a 39 year old, great guy but obviously he was too old for me. Earlier in the year I decided to sign up on match.com just to see what would happen, I didn't really think I would get a date out of it. In September, a guy from match.com contacted me and we started e-mailing each other and getting to know each other, then towards the end of September we went on a date and it went pretty well. I agreed to go on a second date with him but we were having trouble setting it up. It was the beginning of November before we were able to go on that second date. That second date went horribly wrong, it was the worst date I ever had and I realized he really wasn't my type. Then there was another guy which I don't really know how to explain what we were or what happened, so I'm not going to explain it on here. Besides my closest friends already know that story and if you really want to know about it just ask.

I say all this because I am sick of kissing a bunch of frogs to find my prince charming. I think part of my problem with guys is even after I know that it won't work and that he will never be my prince charming I tend to keep them around. I don't know why I keep them around, I think maybe it is because I like having someone there and I figure they will do until the next guy comes around. I also tend to date jerks then don't listen to my friends when they try to tell me that they are jerks.

I have two resolutions for this year:
1. To listen to my friends when they tell me a guy is a jerk.
2. Once I've decided that it won't work with a guy I will break things off with them because there is no use keeping them around.